We become more relaxed with each other and at one point, while we were both still fully clothed, I hugged him from behind while he was showing me one of his books. As we talked, I came to learn that this man was a real intellectual and accomplished retired history professor which several books to his credit. I was nervous as usually but he was very patient and kind. He had a very nice rural cabin where we met. I met a much older man who was 70 years old but in surprisingly good shape. My first bottom experience would be a complete surprise. I knew I was a somewhat feminine cock sucker though and I had experimented with penetrating myself with dildos which was exhilarating.
No guy ever suggested it and I never wanted to top. From there, I would be a 'mostly str8' guy but once or twice a year, I would find a guy and suck his cock (and get sucked myself). That lead to a nervous craigslist encounter with a very nice guy who lead me patiently to suck my first gay cock. I realized that cock was really hot and I wondered if it might be fun to suck one. I first discovered shemales on the internet and was very aroused by men sucking shemale cock. It was the internet that sparked my curiosity. I never thought of being with a man until I was 45.
